i wish. for now the only item i'd be able to afford is the pink top. oh ok, add the earrings as well, as for the others.. i rarely wear white anyway, and a pink hat? its just not me.

ok. another useless post :P

i found my scent this summer (actually last 2002 pa, ty to karen for the gift, but they don't have it here so i still have to order it from ny. huhu) oh and i love banana republics accesoires as well.

someone told me that i blog too much about my work.. and it is true, for that i have to apologize =)

but at least i don't blog at work :P

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i'm at home on a friday night (ehm, again), i gained weight (ehm, again) and i googled my exs (the artist) name for the last time.Of course i do know that this madness has to stop. its been how many months/years now? and wow, their kid is so cute, he's got his fathers eyes.
And i'm not going to talk about all the sacrifices we had to go thru just to save our relationship, but its all good now... all is well now.

We avoid each other, his mom still calls/texts me every now and then...but thats a different story (what is it with me and the moms of my exes anyway?)

as an artist? he improved a lot and according to tita he's a wonderful dad.

so there, this may sound really cheezy, but knowing that he's happy, makes me deliriously happy.

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there is a wedding tomorrow i have to attend, sad thing is i have nothing to wear, and since its going to be wet and cool, i'm thinking about wearing a suit instead of a dress...

and so they finally updated the firms website. i think ate weng weng's pic is the best (dandaaa! iba talaga pinay :P).


and of course:
the coolest boss has the biggest smile
the boss with the most books looks like the boss with the most books (and is my fave boss, despite the fact he can be so impatient at times - and so hard to please)
the boss who doesnt like me looks like the boss who doesnt like anyone
the boss who wears jeans every friday looks like the boss who would never wear jeans
the boss who always asks how i'm doing looks like a big teddy bear


oh and this is the library, see all those shelves with no books on them? they're all full now, and im lacking space, all in all 6000 books ca., and i still have to 2000 books to catalogue.

AT is the associate who i think has so much to do AND who with me is responsible for the library, After working from 8:30 am to 10 pm this girl still manages to look so fresh everytime she leaves the office. and i still don't know what her secret is.

so there, i still have 2 weeks to finish my deadline, merging two libraries together may sound easy, but its not. (and i won't even tell you guys about 200 publications that are loose-leaf editions... hay!!)

so guys wish me luck.

ah. i wish i could work all day. and all night.

but in this world you can't have everything right?

i mean, first, you try to understand someone, you listen, you help, you encourage, you motivate, you laugh, you bring joy....

and then, you get lied at in return.

nope, one cannot have everything in this world.

last sunday i spent the day with 3 boys and baby girl: azriel, ej, kieran and tattat.

my godchildren:
azriel and kieran




tattat


ej and azriel

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to him i am a drama-queen, too emotional to have fun with, too fragile to hang out with

to him i am tedious, the one who'd rather stay at home than go out on a drinking spree, the one who'd rather read a book than go to a party as a 'tag along'

to him i am ungifted and unsuccessful, unlike his ex with her golden voice, unlike his crush with her BMW

He sees me, and the first thing he notices are my imperfections.

but unlike him, i'd rather live with my flaws, than live a life full of repression and denial.

My grandparents (moms aunt and uncle) left back for the states last week, and now my aunt (moms cousin), another lola and my cousin are here from the phil. We visited Salzburg 2 times in 2 weeks, and even the scorching heat won't spoil my admiration for Salzburg.

Red Bull Company:


St. Gilgen:


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Roman Law exam would be in a weeks time, and i still have 4 books to go. urgh.

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Good thing is, i will be spending my easter holiday in the states next year. perhaps i'll even stay for a month, a week in ny (in ow's apartment weeeh!! in manhattan - yey!). but im still broke.

Me: why does your dragon have a tail?

Him: (after thinking for 5 seconds) hmm.. because he has no pwet.

Him is my 3 year old nephew/godchild.
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HM got fired and he's not even sad about it, now he's got more time for his music and his other job. For me, of course, it means, i've got more work to do, but what i'm really unhappy about is that there'd be no more whistling, swinging, red bull drinking, spinning the chair, discussing, hair sniffing, joking around, humming, pencil drumming, sneezing at the same time, chatting, .. at work.

i feel tired and gloomy all of a sudden.

:(

Work keeps me well-balanced lately, reasons why:

at work:

i can actually see positive changes.
i'm not a burden to anyone.
i'm able to fix the chaos that someone else left behind.
my opinion actually matters.
i get to drink free coffee and orange juice/coke light all the time. (thanks to our client)
people smile.
i'm surrounded by books and not bills.

yes, my work does sound like paradise to me lately, but its not really, i still have to withstand MMs scrutiny or ATs big brother attitude, but sadly work has been my solace for the past few days.
of course there is more to life than work, but lately (just lately, i hope) my work gives me more life than well, life itself.

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a tribute to one of my fave bands (this is so my song at the moment)

firewoman - hungry young poets

the moons gone down,

i know you're still awake.

this heart i found,

i didnt intend to break,

coz i've seen the world from down there

and it wasn't a pretty sight.

now the circle is turning,

are you warm for the fight?

i wanna be your firewoman

i'll water down your desire

coz i know this love is a killer

i wanna put your fire.

apologies, its futility.

now destiny, is not a friend

coz i've seen the world from down there

and it wasnt a pretty sight.

now the circle is turning,

are you gonna be alright?

did you come from danger?

you gave me love for pain.

now you're much more than a stranger.

i wanna give you love but all i have is rain.

(Drums rollin')

tadaaa.. ladies and gentlemen, my crush has a blog!!! awoooooooooooooooooo!